I received word that a friend from high school has moved into the hospice phase of his 3 year battle with cancer. I’m thousands of miles away and years removed but I’m floored. I’m angry and sad, so here it comes.
When I sounded the call to support our ride for cancer research this summer I was not overwhelmed by the onslaught. I was touched by a contribution from a friend who’s husband is also battling cancer, in between full time caring for him and their new baby. Thank you so much. Otherwise it was the parents coming to the rescue. Not to diminish their help, but really?
Seriously. Is this thing on? This isn’t for me.
4 responses to “prouty – double down”
I know u r frustrated with the lack of response from people. We both know there are people in our lives who don’t respond to anything we send out for whatever reason. I won’t assign intent to why this is. I know I sometimes forget to donate when a friend sends such a request. Don’t get too cranky with people. Just focus on what you can do to help and let that lead you. Don’t take on the responsibility for other people’s choices. I’m at a training for work right now and one topic is that people are doing the best they can AND they need to do better. As do we.
Woah, look at you with the ‘u r’! Didn’t know you spoke internet. 🙂
I wouldn’t go so far as to say there are individuals in our lives on any kind of shit list that I feverishly maintain, but apparently everyone in my life is incapable of clicking a few links and donating $5 and that is frustrating. There’s no excuse. I’ve had no excuse in the past and I’ve been beating myself up a lot about that lately. I can do better. I try not to talk a lot of bullshit because I rarely back it up, and I won’t be able to support everything and everyone in the future but I also think I can spare more than I have.
So, in this we agree to do better and derive fulfillment from our own lives, but I’m not sorry for getting fired up. It doesn’t seem to have helped my cause, but I kinda feel better. We’re talking about life. I think we all loose sight of what we’re doing here. We all take things for granted. My friend, a guy I wish I had been tighter with, had so much to give and his life is being taken away. It makes a lot of the things we concern ourselves with on a daily basis seem so stupid. Although at the same time, it makes getting really excited and passionate about even the little things very important.
Urge to kill, fading…. fading..
Alex died this morning.
I send his family and friends healing thoughts and comfort. I am beginning to understand why Buddhism is a many-lifetime practice. The core belief that suffering is a part of life is very difficult to accept.